Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Wordless Wednesday...Pajama Day For Little M

Monday, December 15, 2014

Holiday House...

My mom got me these cute little red house candle holders last year, and I have been waiting all year long to use them!

And these moose pillows... I love them so much, I might leave them out all Winter.

We clearly need to change the photo, since it is from last year, but how cute is this frame and the reindeer pinecone holder?

I know... I wish I had more.

All the Christmas books... we read them every day! It's a good thing these only come out at Christmas, otherwise I think the husband might dispose of the twelve days of Christmas book, ha!

Red nativity...

The table...

Christmas chalk art...

Deer decor... I love it!

I also love me some kitchen swag...

The tree...

Some of our most special ornaments... for our babies.

A little wash tape card we can see those cards all month!

We bought the little Chinese girl ornament while we were waiting for our little M.

And another red house!

Don't you just love Christmastime?!

Sunday, December 14, 2014


There's a little girl trembling on a cold December morn
Cyin' for momma's arms
At an orphanage just outside a little China town
Where the forgotten are
But half a world away I hang
The stockings by the fire
And dream about the day
When I can finally call you mine

It's Christmas time again but you're not home
Your family is here and yet you're somewhere else alone
So tonight I pray that God will come and hold you in His arms
And tell you from my heart, I wish you a Merry Christmas
As I hang the tinsel on the tree and watch the twinkling lights
I'm warmed by the fire's glow
Outside the children tumble in a wonderland of white
And make angels in the snow
And half a world away you try
Your best to fight the tears
And hope that heaven's angels come
To carry you here

It's Christmas time again but you're not home
Your family is here and yet you're somewhere else alone
So tonight I pray that God will come and hold you in His arms
And tell you from my heart, I wish you a Merry Christmas
And Christmas is a time to celebrate the Holy Child
And we celebrate His perfect gift of love
He came to us to give His life and prepare a place for us
So we could have a home with Him above
It's Christmas time again and now you're home
Your family is here so you will never be alone
So tonight before you go to sleep, I'll hold you in my arms
And tell you from my heart and I'll tell you from my heart
I wish you a Merry Christmas

~Third Day

Saturday, December 13, 2014


Did you have fun with daddy? ~ me, after the husband took baby J to a boat show.
Yes! We looked at a LOT of boats, and I fink we walked a fousand miles. ~ baby J. A fousand...that's a lot.

I fell down! ~ baby J, after throwing himself on the ground. I think it's a strange boy thing.
Oh! Ah you ok? ~ tiny P
Yes! Thank you! ~ baby J
You fall down? ~ tiny P
Yes... you want me to do it again? ~ baby J
No. ~ tiny P

Oh J, that was a bad choice. Did it hurt? ~ little M, after baby J jumped off the stairs and landed on his face.
Yes. It did hurt! ~ baby J
Well. If only there was something in your head that could tell you not to do things that might hurt. ~ little M. Yes... if only. Ha.

I like your boat, J. ~ little M, drawing together...
Thanks! It's name is the Wahwy woger. ~ baby J

I love you. mommy! ~ little M
I love you, too! ~ me
And J, too? ~ baby J
Yes, and J too. ~ me
No! Not J. Love P. ~ tiny P. She's going to be trouble...

Can you do me a favor? ~ little M
Yes! I love to do you favors? ~ baby J
Can you back up? You're really crowding me. ~ little M
Oh. That's the favor? ~ baby J. Clearly he won't be doing any more favors...

Are you a princess? ~ baby J, to little M
What do you think? ~ little M
I think you are! ~ baby J
You would be right. ~ little M

Ahoy, matey! I see Christmas straight ahead! ~ baby J, while we were at Target to pick out a little tree for his room.

J, you are such a handsome man! ~ little M, to baby J
Thank you! You too! ~ baby J

Did you hear that noise? ~ baby J
Umm, yes? ~ me
It was my bottom! ~ baby J. Swell.

What are you guys doing in there? ~ me, to the kids who were supposed to be cleaning their rooms.
We cleaned, and now we are just playing. ~ little M
I hope you aren't making a mess. ~ me
Yeah. Me too. ~ little M What?

Why is she crying? ~ the husband
I gave her a broken cracker... ~ me, feeding tiny P. Who likes broken crackers?

That's my toy! Don't touch it, please! ~ baby J, to tiny P
She's just so curious! Be super patient to her! ~ little M

What did you do with baby Jesus? ~ me, looking at the nativity in little M's room.
He's hanging out with my kitty and the furby. ~ little M
You know mommy, he can't be in the nativity until Christmas day, anyways, because that's when He was born. So he has time to hang out and visit. ~ little M. Alrighty, then.

I'm freezing... let's make some hot chocolate! ~ me
That's a splendid idea, mommy! Let's do that everyday! ~ little M. Splendid!

Daddy, if you were a giant pupusa I would eat you! ~ little M

Good job, guys! The tree looks so pretty! ~ me, after decorating the tree
Yes! Now can we open presents?? ~ baby J

You know what I need in this life, mommy? ~ little M
What do you need? ~ me. In this life?
A duck. ~ little M
What? ~ me
It will teach me responsibility! I will have to take care of it, and it will be my job! ~ little M
I am not sure we can have a duck at our house. ~ me
Well, we can check. And also I will need a book about how to take care of ducks, because I don't know anything about them. ~ little M. If you see her and she tells you she is getting a duck, don't encourage this!! It's crazy talk!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Wrapping Our Minds... Heart Stuff

In just a month we will be making our way back to Children's (and hopefully not before that!) for tiny P's heart surgery...

And right now we have no idea of exactly what that surgery will entail...

I've been trying to think of what to say, how to explain what we know, how we feel, and what the future holds for our tiny P.

When tiny P had her heart catheterization, one of the things the surgeon tested were the pressures in her Glenn (the surgery she had in China). The pressure is very important because it tells us how healthy her Glenn is and how her heart is doing overall.
Normal pressure would be in the 12-15 range, with 15-17 being the highest that her heart would be able to handle having the Fontan surgery that she needs. But tiny P's pressures were around 22, and while her pressures are this high she is not a candidate for the Fontan surgery.

What does this mean for our baby?
We don't know yet, but she has a surgery scheduled for January 14th, the surgery that we were originally hoping would be to place her Fontan. Instead, the plan for now is to repair a leaky valve, and whatever else happens during surgery will be up to the surgeon. This leaky valve is believed to be part of what is creating these high pressures, and our prayer is that once this is fixed the pressures will drop enough that she can then have the Fontan surgery done.

It seems most likely, after discussing tiny P's results with the cardiologist a few weeks ago, that our tiny P will be having quite a few more tests, and most likely more surgeries to come, to make her heart healthier, and our tiny P more comfortable.

So where does all of this news leave us?

For now, I have been blogging a little less frequently...partly because my spare time is spent researching and learning all I can about the things we have learned about our little girl's unique anatomy, and partly because I have been trying to make this holiday season as special and memorable as I can for my family. I am letting housework go to sit and snuggle with my babies and just talk, or watch a show. I am not crafting or working on projects because I am giving my toddler all the attention she wants from me, which is every single second she is awake, and when she is napping, I am trying to give my sensitive, stressed little guy all the affection he needs from his mommy.

We are enjoying our kids, and soaking up every single moment we have with our tiny P. We are doing our best to make beautiful memories for our family, and at the same time we are working on attachment, and dealing with two year old drama. We are trying to give little M and baby J the security of their routine, while also dealing with the many doctor appointments we have for our new little family member.  We are slowly finding our new normal, even knowing that normal will change very soon, and we are living... we are trying to live life to the fullest, because even though we could very easily give in to fear of the future, we know that every day is a gift, and we want our children to see us live, and love, with reckless abandon.

Tiny P is in great hands at Children's Hospital, and her cardiologist is amazing, and even though it is so hard to not have an exact plan, and to not know exactly what will be done during her surgery, we are trying to not be overcome with worry. The husband and I are both planners, and it is hard to plan for something when all the plans are tentative!

We love this little girl so much, and we are choosing to have hope for her future... God loves tiny P even more than we do, and he has brought her so far, and held her tiny broken heart in his hands for so long, and we are so thankful that we get to be her family!

Sunday, December 7, 2014