Half a year! That’s how long little M has been home with us! a whole half of a year!
Six months ago, there was a quiet, albeit generally happy little girl.
What we didn’t know was that this little girl was happy only on the outside. It was a false happiness. Today we are seeing the true little M. Yes, she is still happy, but we are seeing genuine smiles, real laughter. And we are seeing other emotions, as well. Little M is relaxing more and more as time goes on, and we are thrilled that she is trusting us with these other emotions. It is normal to be sad, or mad, or even scared. Little M is a normal almost three year old, and she has these emotions. I am so happy that she is allowing herself to feel them. How stressful it must have been for her to have to cover up what she was feeling and paste a smile on her face!
Six months ago, we had a weak little girl with a very sick heart. Today we have a healthy little girl who I know is going to amaze us with what she can do.
Six months ago, our girl did not know how to regulate herself, or her emotions. When she would get overwhelmed or excited she would do a hysterical laugh that we called the joker laugh for its maniacal feeling sound, and that fake joker laugh would continue until someone helped her to calm down. Now, she is learning how to calm herself, and she has a belly laugh that is so contagious, I have heard people laughing
at her with her in the next aisle when we are shopping.
Six months ago our girl was either quiet and watchful, or over the top excited. Six months later little M is never quiet, and is always talking or singing wherever we go. She still has her occasional moments when she zones out, and goes “somewhere else,” but we are glad to see those moments getting fewer and farther between. Little M is still hyper-vigilant, and maybe she always will be. We hope that time will show her that she can trust us to look out for her, and trust that we will take care of her, and let some of that vigilance go.
I can’t believe how quickly six months has flown by, and I can’t wait to see what the next six months bring! These past months have been so full, and I know the months to come will be just as full. Of laughter, happiness, and the joy our little M brings us.
Happy six months home, little M!