One Week…

In just a week, our little guy will head to Kindergarten…

In all honesty, I am very nervous.

Not because I can’t believe my baby is so grown up, or I will will miss him, or I think he’s not ready for this, or maybe I’m not ready for this…

Truly, I am ready. Our baby J is as ready as we can make him. But this boy…

He makes this mama worry.

Our baby J had the hardest school year of his life last year. His poor choices made things very hard on him, his teachers, and on us. Granted, there were some things going on, with tiny P being in the hospital most of his school year, and thus, his mommy being out of the picture as well…and our boy does NOT do well with change! But still…

We have spent the entire Summer with a psychiatrist, as well as a neurology team, having him evaluated, going over what makes our boy tick, what triggers him, and how we can help him be successful.

Is baby J going into school in the best place we can get him? No…I don’t even know what that looks like for our boy. And that makes me incredibly nervous. For a little guy like our baby J, with the background of trauma and attachment issues he has, we may never get to the bottom of it. We will keep working on it, and seeking answers, and trying, though…because our boy is worth fighting for.

For now? Kindergarten is next week. We meet the teacher, we talk to the principle, and the team of special ed teachers who will be working to help baby J be successful this year, and we hope… and we pray… and if need be, we bring that teacher starbucks every morning. Because this mama knows…