Little M has had a rough couple weeks.
She is so strong, and so resilient that sometimes it’s easy to forget that there must be so much going on inside. Huge feelings that can be kept hidden behind a beautiful smile.
But lately, those feeling have been coming out. It is so healthy, and we are so glad to see her let down her guard enough to trust us with her grief and sadness. It is also hard. We hate to see our little girl sad, and we often feel helpless in the face of her grief.
We know that children her age are sometimes sad about things like having to go to bed, or not getting another cookie…this is different. This is deep and wrenching. It goes way beyond just being sad.
I have never seen such deep grief come out of another person adult or child, in my life, and it is especially heartbreaking to watch such grief in such a little person.
What brought this on? Why did this happen, seemingly, so suddenly?
Maybe is is just part of the natural progression of things…
I do know that many things can trigger grief and sadness, and can even bring on a regression. Kelly, at Gazing Upward posted this list on her blog:
*A change in routine
*Separation from parents
*New activities or experiences
*Stressful experiences such as a doctor or hospital visit, or meeting new people
With Thanksgiving, and the holiday season, Little M has had almost all of these triggers occur in her life, so we are not sure which one brought this on, or if all of them combined were too much. I am positive little M has no idea what triggered these feelings, I am sure she is not even conscious of the effect these experiences had on her, since she genuinely enjoyed many of them.
For now, all we can do is hold our little girl when she is sad, laugh with her when she is happy, and pray that the void she feels will soon be filled with love and joy, and the grief that creeps in on her will be swept away.