Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!

Happy first day of 2013, all...

I am sure this year will bring us all kinds of crazy (maybe even scary), surprises... not knowing what exactly is going to happen can be hard on me, and I am endeavoring to take what comes and embrace it with open arms, feeling and living every moment.

We will add a new child, a son, to our family this year. Little M will have a little brother, and we will become a family of four. I know that people do this all the time, and they are good at it...two kids is really not that much in the grand scheme of things, I know. We have friends with many more than two kids, and they are calm and good at parenting.

Having one kid was scary for me...now I can't imagine life without this little M.


But that first year was a doozy, and I am expecting that 2013 will be a difficult one...a growing year, as it were. There will be regressions on little M's part, plus there will be a devastated, grieving little boy to care for. There will be bonds to make, and attachments to grow.

I am looking forward to meeting that boy, to bringing him home, and getting to know him...

when we went through the adoption process for little M, we were naive. We were so excited to finally be bringing our girl home. There was definitely some nervousness, as we didn't know exactly what to expect, but we were naive...innocent, even.

But now we know. We know how hard it is to watch a little tiny child grieve from the depths of their tiny soul for all they have lost. We know what it is like to see a little one cry for their momma, and to know that they do not mean you. We know that it is so hard, yes...and we know that it is so worth it.


This year will be a hard year, I am sure.

This year will be a great year, I am sure.

I am looking forward to what God has for us this year, and I am thanking Him for His many blessings on our family...we have been incredibly and amazingly blessed!




1 comment:

dawn said...

You are an amazing Mama, you understand how important it is to treat our children differently so that they can attach and bond. You understand regression and fear. Don't under estimate yourself because you will rock this.

For what it is worth, the night before we received our second daughter I sat in the bathroom in our hotel room in China and cried, I was terrified. I couldn't believe I was changing the dynamic of our family. Had I lost my mind? I loved this baby but what was I thinking? what if I couldn't love her quite as much as I loved our first?
It all worked out, our dynamic is better than ever and now I have I sometimes have 3 extra kiddies sleep over and I can do it with my eyes shut.

You've got this.
happy, wonderful 2013 to all of you.