Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Four Months...

We are at the four month mark, and I have to say we have very few things to complain about. Little M is delightful, and we love to be with her.
While we don't have many things to complain or be upset about, we, like all parents, feel like there are many things to worry about....and it's only been four months. Four months is a long time, it's a third of a year! It's also a short time, being only a third of a year.

It's only been four months, and already I find myself impatient for Mackenzie to be caught up. To speak english andcommunicate. To adjust and to bond.


Just four months...and I want her to change so much after everything HAS changed so much.
Just four months...and I have such high expectations?
Just four months...and I wonder if I am being the best mom I can be. Am I giving her the love and support she needs?
Just four months...does she know she can trust us?
Just four months...when will she know how much I love her?

Sometimes, I forget that little M has only just begun her life here with us. Sometimes, it seems like she has been here forever. We are beginning to get into a rhythm, her and I.
I am seeing more and more of her sweet, sassy little personality every day.


But truly, I know we have so far to go, and I can't wait to see what the next four months brings us.
Happy four months, little M! We love you more every day!



4 comments:

Annie said...

Happy 4 months! You are doing a great job, Mom. And it is clear from her happy face that little M's attachment is growing stronger by the month!

Grace said...

happy four months! you are an amazing mommy, joanna! and i'm sure that in her own way, mackenzie knows how much you love her. so glad to be following along on your journey!

michelle said...

Happy 4 months! Isn't it amazing that in just 4 months, it feels like that little girl has been part of your life for much, much longer. We've had our daughter for a year and I still get tears when I look at her and sometimes can't believe she's really with us.

It gets better each day as you get to know all facets of Little M's personality and that bond will grow stronger.

Alyson and Ford said...

Four months is a short time; we had naive expectations; our AA wasn't really secure until she had been home with us the same amount of time she was in the orphanage; a good rule of thumb. Glad all is well!
Happy New Year!

Alyzabeth's Mommy